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Name: trixi
Location: California, United States
Interests: READING anything nice. Learning new things. Dancing. Music. The HUMAN BODY. Philosophy about LIFE. Movies.
Expertise: Good-memory actually
Occupation: Full-time student
Industry: Medical
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Member Since:
12/26/2003
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| I realize that I don't get close to people.. who are sensitive and weak because I am afraid of hurting them. I don't know if that's wrong. but I don't think it is.. I've noticed the people im not close to even though I've known them for yrs.. why i'm not close to them... when I mean close I mean that bond where I am comfortable in sharing my thoughts and having conversation with.
Foor some reason, I just can't open up or get close to people who are weak, vulnerable, sensitive.. the ones that always says YES and the ones that use their heart too much instead of their brain. if u get what i mean.
I'm not saying that non of the people that i'm comfortable w/ are not sensitive. they are but in a sense where they reason out things. and are very rational... and understandable.. and still STRONG willed in the inside at the same time. use their brain and heart even it out. if you know what i mean?
but damn, i can't stand sensitive people who can't suck it up..
it frustrates me because.. i am who i am and sometimes i don't want to worry what I say or be CAREFUL. i just want to be set free and let the other person hopefully understand what I mean. u know what i mean...
Just wanted to let this out because people who are weak and sensitive annoys me when it gets to me.. or happens excessively. It's not that i don't want to deal with you its just that i don't want to hurt anyone. so i try not to get close. can't blame someone for who they are.
this blog may not make sense but maybe if it was said personally it'll be more clear.. especially it's late and i'm tired. i'm typing whatever comes up in mind. try putting all the pieces together and the blog will make sense :)
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| I have to learn how to budget my money wisely and save.. Gas is crazy
nowadays so I'm trying to save gas, you know. But it's hard because the
places where i need to go is far. But oh well, I still need to learn
how to spend wisely, though. It has turned into a big issue for me ever
since my mom's credit expired. It sucks now because I use to use it
when I run out of money. It's a good thing because I get to control how
much I spend everyday. I feel bad asking them for so much. It's ok when
it comes to allowance, but other things like my bills I should be
paying for that. With that said, I have to minimize my spendings when
it comes to going out. Eat out less when I go out lol 
It's so hard, but I have to make sacrifices. I have a job now so
hopefully it will be easier now. After two months of this EMT program
then I can get a job at the hospital. I sure can't wait for that :). I
know I should be in Guam for a vacation but I sacrifice that to take
this EMT class because it's the only time I can do it. So why not? In
the end it's going to be worth it..
so yeah my summer school starts on July.. which is going to be EVERYDAY
from 9:30am-12:10pm. + night school for EMT MTTH 5-9pm. + my job at
Kabuki.. eh my schedule varies there.
I need to make the best of all this. they know the fact that atleast I
am doing something with my life they are willing to pay for everything.
Staying home alot makes me think more about my life and i've realized alot of things. I guess I hung out alot before that it made me got tired of it. The only time I'm out is when I have to be there or when it is important other than that I just want to chill and relax. Hanging out alot is bad but at the same time staying home too much by yourself is bad thats y it's good to hang out once in a while.. just not all the time.. We all need to move on and suck it up because we actually all have a life outside to live. By being home I thought of myself.. life.. what weakness i have.. and what i need to prioritize in life.. what i need to FIX.. I start thinking philosophically.. about why life exist? jk jk but sometimes i do.
i haven't fully made my decision, yet.. to whether or not i'm going to quit.. i could make a choice but there would be sacrifices that i'd have to make. It's possible to choose my team over my job, but I can't. I need the hours to work. I choose to drop what is less important. it's time to move on.
I can't afford to not succeed this time.
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| Everything is going to be FINE 
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| i wish there was something i can do.. to help. I think we should learn how to not take people for granted because you will never know one day they
will leave. it's so hard.. to keep reminding yourself, I know, because
of so many things happening in our lives. i try my best.. but now i am
really affected by what happened. i wouldn't know how to deal with a
situation like that. honestly.
now i got a lot of shit to worry about this week.
1.) chem lab report
2:) Bio lab book and exam due thursday 9am
3:) Chem midterm friday
4:) CPR essay for bio due thursday
so many deadlines... it just never stops. this what happens when you take 2 science class including 2 labs and a math class. yup!
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| I miss writing. Let me see.. WHAT? shall I write...
Fessa sum. debio laborare diligenter.
Laeta sum in CG!
If God puts you to it he will get you through IT.
I am turning 22 in a month and five days! I feel old. I was talking to a friend of mine the other night. It's crazy how time can fly by in just an instant and you can't believe how much you've grown. I reminisce how back in the day we was so different and how we ourselves has changed mentally and physically from experiences in life. You start to see things more clearly.
I am so glad I'm putting so much effort in school and keeping it on top. I've learned how to limit myself from going out and driving a LOT to far places. I only drive to places only if I have to get there etc. And I've been going to the gym at least two to three times a week which makes life a lot easier and refreshing.
I am taking this jazz class in my school and I am loving it because one thing is I adapted to it pretty easy for some odd reason. They style was quick to learn, but it kind of ruined my focus in hip hop choreography. It's weird.. =\ Our teacher trains us pretty well, though, and also challenges us with faster choreo. I'm pretty glad I took this class to see what else is out there besides just plain street choreography. =) ahh, I can't wait for next semester! Our midterm is so exciting because we get to choreograph with anything! YittiDEEE!!
I've got good plans and I got it good ;)
Have you noticed this entry is full of "I"? haha. homework time!
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